The Last Day of February

This has been the longest and shortest month of my life. Two weeks ago, I posted about losing my Grandfather. In addition to suddenly losing him, we also lost my Grandmom this past Wednesday, this loss was even more unexpected. To know they are with the ones they love and that they are not suffering anymore is reassuring, but it doesn’t make me miss them any less.

grandmom collageI am so thankful that I was able to see my Grandmom one last time, two weeks ago. She patted my belly, and told me I looked good (even though she had been telling me not to get too fat!) She was always telling me not to get pregnant, right after I got married, because Jim was away at Basic and then at AIT for 9 + months. She would say, “Don’t you get pregnant, Rosie!” And I’d say, “Grandmom, Jim isn’t here, I can’t get pregnant!” This happened every time I saw her. So when I got pregnant, it was a big joke. I asked Grandmom if it was okay that I was pregnant, and she said yes, but not to get too fat. So today after my glucose test, which wasn’t nearly as bad (or bad at all) as everyone made it out to be, I ate a donut. Sorry, Grandmom!

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Every day that we have here on this earth is truly a gift. I can not stress that enough. Always, always tell the people you care about that you love them. You never know when it’ll be the last time you have the chance to.

Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone. It isn’t just death we have to grieve. It’s life. It’s loss. It’s change. And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime. That’s how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can’t breathe, that’s how you survive. By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won’t feel this way. It won’t hurt this much. Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way. So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty. The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can’t control it. The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes. And let it go when we can. The very worst part is that the minute you think you’re past it, it starts all over again. And always, every time, it takes your breath away. There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five. Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. Acceptance. – Grey’s Anatomy

 

Dr. Seuss Nursery for Baby M: Part 2

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Dr. Seuss ABC: An Amazing Alphabet Book

We really had it easy (and were lucky) when it came to furnishing the nursery. Jim’s sister gave us their crib (pictures to come another day) and we decided to use Jim’s old Ikea dresser as a changing table. I really didn’t want to buy a changing table, it really didn’t make any sense because it seems like a one use item. First off, we live in a two level house. Besides at night and in the morning, I’m not hauling the baby up and down the steps to change him. Second, you can find actual dressers cheaper than changing tables. Third, we already had this dresser and Jim barely ever used it, it it the PERFECT size or a changing table. We are going to add Velcro to the bottom of the pad so that it doesn’t move around. This one is four-sided, which makes me feel extra safe with Baby M on it. (Remember to never leave your baby alone on the changing table.) I also love using the dresser because it doubles as storage for clothes.

changing coverThe few Dr. Seuss nursery items that are not handmade are from the Dr. Seuss ABC nursery theme, which is based on the book Dr. Seuss ABC: An Amazing Alphabet Book. We also have the mobile, for the crib.

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Bins – Ikea

I love these little bins that we found at Ikea. They are perfect for storing diapers (we are using reusable), diaper cream, and wipes. They may eventually end up on a shelf towards the side of the dresser, but as for now they are in the top drawer for easy access.

Baby M’s Nursery Sneak Peek!

In honor of Dr. Seuss’ Birthday week, his actual Birthday is March 2, I will let you all in on a not-so-secret little secret. The theme of our nursery is *drum roll please* Dr. Seuss. I know, you saw it coming, especially if you follow me on Pinterest or you have actually asked me what it is. I have also hinted at it in some of my baby bump pics, with the Dr. Seuss books that I have in the background. I wasn’t keeping it a secret, I just never made it publicly known until now. Throughout this week, I’ll show you bits and pieces of the nursery (which isn’t even close to being finished yet), but is definitely a lot further along than two weeks ago.

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The Lorax by Dr. Seuss

Why did we choose Dr. Seuss?  The most obvious reason being, of course, that I am obsessed with children’s literature (I was torn between a Dr. Seuss room and a Curious George room). The main reason Dr. Seuss won the race is because my dad started these awesome paintings, back in the summer, and they reminded me of The Lorax. He immediately regretted sending me pictures of the paintings because I then told them a) I wanted them and b) he now had an obligation to finish them. Since then, the two paintings that inspired the room have turned into five. He is also working on some other smaller wooden paintings that I absolutely love. He keeps threatening to throw them in the fireplace, but I will not allow that to happen. Oh, the life of an artist, always their own biggest critic, where as I am always his biggest fan. Have you seen his art on Pinterest? The artwork will not be done until closer to May (keep painting, Dad!) Wait for them and the big nursery reveal closer to my due date, which is May 19.

Not only is my dad creating special art for Baby M, my mother-in-law is also using her creativity to complete our nursery. Marge makes fabulous quilts and has already made us two: a patriotic quilt, that is on our sofa, and a t-shirt quilt, made from my old t-shirts. As soon as we decided on a theme, I went straight to the fabric store in Korea (I miss Happy Quilt) and picked up some Dr. Seuss fabric. Along with my fabric, and some cute fabric she found near her at The Quilt Block, Baby M’s quilt is going to be out-of-this-world. I am so excited to share it with you all closer to when the baby is born. I’m so lucky to have such a talented family that is willing to help with the nursery. I love one-of-a-kind items. The paintings and quilt will certainly be just that.

And now for the sneak peek pictures:

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Hamper – Ikea /outlet plates – Etsy

Name reveal will be this week! Stay tuned! ❤

They said, “You will miss Korea…”

they saidWinter is kicking my butt today. This weekend was so beautiful and now it’s back to the freezing cold weather. The birds think it’s spring already though, and are chirping away, maybe we should have went to Georgia.

As I write this, the most depressing song is on Good Morning America sung by Mary Lambert; I can’t help but miss Korea. GASP! I said it; it only took, 3 1/2 months (give or take a few days.) They said it would happen, and I screamed, “NO WAY, NOT EVER!” But the thing is, I don’t miss living in Korea, (the convenience of America surpasses the inconvenience of Korea, any day of the week,) but I do miss the sense of belonging that we had there, where everyone knew our name. Now, no one knows who the heck we are.

I never understoond why Korea was everyone’s “assignment of choice.” I kept thinking, ‘If this is the BEST post out there, then I can’t imagine what other posts are like.’ 3 1/2 months after leaving Korea, I now I understand what being in Korea is all about. It’s about community; it’s about making your friends, your family; it’s about getting out there even when all you want to do is go “home” and go to Target. And I feel like I did that: I got out there, I volunteered, and I made a lot of great friends. (It’s not like I was hiding in my apartment hating life.) Even though I will actively admit that I didn’t enjoy Korea as much as many people did, I never forget to tell them that being with Jim made it ALL worth it. After all, I married him so that we could be together on the same continent.

Now that I’m back in the land of Target, I have no one to go with. I miss my friends. I miss calling them up and going to the local farmers market every five days. I miss going to the snack shop in our apartment complex with Jim and buying way too many snacks for two people (okay, maybe this is good that I can’t do this while pregnant…) I miss the bakery, the sweetest strawberries in the world (literally), and being able to walk places when it’s warm. I miss the food not being expensive (Korean food is three times the price in America), and I miss post being right down the road (even if the commissary was 1/3 of the size as the one here).

Things I don’t miss about Korea: Only being able to shop on post for food/American items, lack of American food options, not being able to drive, and most importantly only seeing my family every six months. (Oh, and of course, the out-of-control cold winter.) Like I said, I wouldn’t give up the perks of life in America to go back to Korea. But sometimes, on days like today, I miss it.  Maybe, if my Korea friends could come to Maryland, so I didn’t have to start attempting to make new friends, life would start to feel normal again. And to those who are still in Korea, could you bring me some strawberries? Thanks!

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be. – Marcel Pagnol

28 weeks Pregnant: HELLO THIRD TRIMESTER!

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How far along: 28 weeks
Gender: A boy‘s story is the best that is ever told. – Charles Dickens
Weight gain: 21 pounds. I consider myself lucky that it isn’t more after all the snow we got last week and being at my parents, don’t leave a tray of cookies in front of a emotional pregnant woman!
Maternity clothes: I need to STOP buying maternity clothes. I seriously go into Target, get depressed that I can’t buy new regular people Spring clothes, come home, and order more maternity clothes. It has to end. But these are so CUTE!
Stretch marks: A few. It’s okay, those are the least of my worries!
Belly button in or out: Jim tried to tell me it popped, but it hasn’t, I swear!
Sleep: Last week was AWFUL with sleeping. But now I’m back in my own bed and I’m getting more rest, thank goodness.
Best moment this week: Our 3 year Anniversary! I’m a lucky gal, that’s for sure!
Worst moment this week: Saying goodbye to my Grandpop, I don’t think it feels real yet.
Miss anything: Wine. I really needed some wine this week, and still do. 3 more months!
Movement: rolling around
Cravings: sweets. I need to stop eating sweets!
Queasy or sick: I’m not sick, but Jim has been sick for a month! I have no idea how I didn’t get sick from him, holding my breath that I won’t!
Looking forward to: This weekend and the warm weather. Continuing to work on the nursery (sneak peak will be next weekend!)

Maternity Must Haves

There are tons of lists out there that pregnant women have put together regarding what they love during their pregnancy. Since I am almost in my third trimester, I thought it would be a perfect time to share the brands I love with you!

Maternity Clothes:

maternity2Old Navy: You can get some really great deals there. They’re ALWAYS having sales in-store and online. The in-store section is a lot smaller than online, but still worth a look. I LOVE their full panel skinny jeans. Since I’m short, I have a hard time finding jeans that fit, lengthwise; these are PERFECT. I would go in the store to try on though, because you never know about jeans, and returning is a pain in the butt, no matter where you order from.

Gap: Their non-sale stuff is a bit pricey, but on sale stuff is worth it. I got a few things online and a few things in-store. The in-store stuff is usually found in Baby Gap, and not all Baby Gap’s have a maternity section, I would call before you go. I like their tops better than Old Navy because most of them don’t have the scrunched sides.

Target: Their stuff is so comfy (especially Liz Lange). I have ordered a few things online (you can find more sales online and nothing is ever on sale in-store) and have brought a few things at the store. Some stores have bigger sections than others.

PinkBlush: Their stuff is online (you can find a lot on Zulily) and on their website. Their prices are a bit higher, but their stuff is more stylish than the other stores mentioned above. But, you can find some really cute prints with PinkBlush that you really can’t find other place. Plus, they also have a sale section!

Asos: Another great site for sales. Their normal priced stuff is way overpriced, but I got a few things on sale. I would buy a size up for shirts, because I bought a few that don’t fit me as well anymore. They have a big selection of maternity dresses, which are great for weddings and special occasions.

Zulily: I have been ordering all of my nursing bras off here. So far, I have gotten three and I really like them. I have been trying to stick with the wireless bras for now because I’m sure I will get bigger after I give birth. They have great deals on maternity clothes, baby clothes, and other great brands like TOMS. I usually make sure I’m getting a good deal on the items by going to Amazon to see if it’s cheaper on there, or going to the label’s site directly. The prices are USUALLY worth it. Order on a Friday, pay shipping once, and you have free shipping ALL weekend. New brands are available every day at 9 AM.

Other Stuff:

maternityEos: This is the best chapstick EVER. I have three different flavors and I love them all (especially the mint). I keep one near my bed and two in my purse; you can never have too much chapstick.

Cocoa Butter: I just use Palmers for stretch marks. People like to get fancy but I like this stuff. I enjoy the smell as well! I only have two marks, so far, and they’re not in bad spots. Maybe I wouldn’t have any if I actually remembered to use it every day.

Snacks: You can read about what I like to eat while pregnant here. Since writing this post, I also have grown to love  Nutri Grain Bars Starwberry Greek Yogurt and Yoplait Blended Greek Yogurt (blueberry and cherry).

Baby Blogs: You can read about the blogs I love here. I am especially loving all of the baby lists on The Wise Baby. They usually post real moms’ lists on Wednesdays; where real moms post their favorite baby products. Maybe I’ll submit my list after Baby M is born!

Baby Books: You can read all about the books I love here.